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Why does it feel like its replaying all over again

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 02:22:19 -0400

Why does it feel like its replaying all over again

late night writing.

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 02:20:31 -0400

I know its easy for others to dismiss our time together as merely young love, but I know exactly how I feel and, I love you I love you with every ounce of my being. You bring peace to my heart and mind and I thank you for loving me the way you do and most importantly recieving my love in return. Im genuinley happy that its you I choose to invest my entire heart on I swear I value you for everything that you are and arent despite the fact that sometimes it may not seem like it…your the perfect friend the perfect lover your just the epitome of perfection….i know you know that I love you but I wish I could make you understand the actual depth of it. Maybe, hoping, one day…you will.

Something my mom basically said to me. And I managed to find it in english.

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 00:29:04 -0500

The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody!…Cowards do that…

That moment you go without seeing someone you really care about and your fine but once you see them...

Thu, 12 Jan 2012 19:25:52 -0500

That moment you go without seeing someone you really care about and your fine but once you see them you see why you caree so much. Yeah that feeling sucks

"Things I hate about you."

Wed, 04 Jan 2012 03:18:56 -0500

“Things I hate about you.”

- I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive your car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you’re always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all

fuck-yeah-its-samantha: THIS!!

Tue, 03 Jan 2012 17:43:32 -0500

fuck-yeah-its-samantha:

THIS!!

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Mon, 19 Dec 2011 00:14:51 -0500

the way I spoke about my best friend today I never thought I’d have to say the things I did...

Wed, 14 Dec 2011 04:59:05 -0500

the way I spoke about my best friend today I never thought I’d have to say the things I did that it pained me but I feel like it was the only way. I know he heard it but I know he understands the point I was trying to get across. But I know I didn’t say anything wrong. Luis knows I love the shit outta him. I already send my apogly’s to him.

On another note..its almost the end of the year. .

I was feeling a bit more different about stuff till I got that phonecall

Mon, 12 Dec 2011 21:16:36 -0500

I was feeling a bit more different about stuff till I got that phonecall

At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past...

Thu, 08 Dec 2011 14:29:18 -0500

At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of it now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.

throwing everything in my room ! :’(>:o !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fucking heattedddd

Thu, 08 Dec 2011 02:35:10 -0500

throwing everything in my room ! :’(>:o !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fucking heattedddd

When there’s something you really want, fight for it, don’t give up no matter how...

Wed, 07 Dec 2011 20:23:27 -0500

When there’s something you really want, fight for it, don’t give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you’ve lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now you’re going to wish you had given it just one more shot. Cause the best things in life, they don’t come free

Interesting..” two wrongs dnt make a right “…. Because mathematically it does.. A...

Wed, 30 Nov 2011 14:48:46 -0500

Interesting..” two wrongs dnt make a right “…. Because mathematically it does.. A wrong is a negative and a right is a positive…two negatives cross each other out to make a positive.. Soo two wrongs do make a right…Mathematically speaking.

I hate all these moodswings I have but honesty is cause I’m just frustrated with how much I...

Wed, 30 Nov 2011 03:43:41 -0500

I hate all these moodswings I have but honesty is cause I’m just frustrated with how much I have to just act like nothing is wrong when in reality there is. But who gives a fuck right?

Beautiful struggle

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 17:00:28 -0500

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.

Love is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. What you don’t learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn’t worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it.

Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. It’s him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable.

It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it’s not her caressing your hair and telling you that everything’s going to be alright. It’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another person’s hand and said “here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it.”

It makes us crazy. It makes us invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the crap out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it’s a lot better than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole.

Life is a challenge, and so is love. Things never come easy in life; if they do, memories are rare, suffering won’t get you through the tough times, there’s nothing to look back on. There’s no mistakes that you learn from. In the end, it’s all worth it.

"Sometimes lyrics speaks more then the mind."

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 15:33:37 -0500

“Sometimes lyrics speaks more then the mind.”

- I don’t ever be tripping over what ain’t mine and I be hearing the shit you say through the grapevine but jealousy is just love&hate at the same time it’s been that way from the beginning I just been playing I ain’t even notice I was winning.

Alone

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 04:30:45 -0500

At the end, I stand alone, and I fall alone..and ima continue to fall alone. So with that being said. I rather be alone…. With nobody no family no friends no nothing. Nobody gonna hear from me. Nobodys gunna have to deal with me. Or deal with my problems. Good … I hope at the end everyone gets what they deserve. Cus I def. Deserve to be miserable and I’m realizing that now.

Its me myself and I ..I guess..

Your mind doesn’t control what your heart does. and your heart doesn’t control what your...

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 02:28:13 -0500

Your mind doesn’t control what your heart does. and your heart doesn’t control what your mind does. Sometimes we must ingore your heart and follow your mind. But if I follow my mind, clearly it leads me to one thing..you..but is it really leading me there or is it aLl in my mind and it just leads me there? hm.. (Confused) :(

What if..what if I made a list and see which one is longer. “Staying or leaving” I’m fooling myself I know what list would be longer. So then what?. I don’t get nothing out of it. smh welcoming myself to one of the second hardest decisions I’ve ever have to make :(. But I know ill be okay?.. I hope..

Luis, smh I know your watching me. I miss you man :/ shit right now ud be like here holding me saying “it’ll be okay mel” not a day that goes by that I don’t imagine you saying that .wishing everyday you were here. I don’t show it but damn it gets harder and hardeer knowning I can’t see your face :(. Come in my dreams or sumthing I must speak to you3. Thinking of you everyday. I love youuu. I look up at the sky, and I see you3 goodnight my angel.

You think you know but you have no idea.

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 23:08:25 -0500

You think you know but you have no idea.

there’s nothing more beautiful than a smile that struggles...

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 21:14:04 -0500

there’s nothing more beautiful than a smile that struggles through the tears